Packing - AGAIN!
Well we survived packing our house! There were a few moments when I wondered if Steve and I alone could actually pack the whole house. Boy did we miss you friends and family this move! Being the holiday season there weren’t any available friends to help with the process!!
Oh well, the whole point being we survived! Thanks in large part to music. Lots of music. Lots of LOUD music to keep our minds off the task at hand and allow us to escape into the lyrics. Today as I was packing my kitchen I was listening to Joe Rogness. I love Joe’s music – I have since the first time I heard him sing. However since moving to Africa his music has become even more meaningful. I’ve tried to figure out why that is and the only conclusion I can come to is that so many of his lyrics are filled with raw emotion. Struggles, pain, desire, joy – longing to express the feelings of his heart with words that others can understand. And yet the beauty of emotions is that they often leave us speechless. While I was singing along today, one of the lines that choked me up says, “Don’t let me doubt in darkness what you have shown me in the light”. And I thought to myself, “Man God that just sums it up for me. Please let me trust you NO MATTER WHAT!” Our lives here in Mozambique are full of uncertainty and I continue to have to choose everyday whether I will go with the flow of uncertainty or whether I will fight a loosing battle for control of the uncontrolalbe. Inevitably, when I choose the latter I set myself up for failure. I really believe that learning to walk by faith in my spiritual life requires me to learn to walk comfortably in uncertainty in my physical life. Unfortunately this seems to be a lesson that I have to relearn time and again.
As we move again to a new house, new neighborhood and new routines I have to choose to embrace the newness and celebrate the change. There is always growth in change and once I move through the pain of growth I am always glad that I have been changed! I long to remember that my God is completely dependable and in control whether I can see what’s ahead or whether I’m walking in the darkness!
Oh well, the whole point being we survived! Thanks in large part to music. Lots of music. Lots of LOUD music to keep our minds off the task at hand and allow us to escape into the lyrics. Today as I was packing my kitchen I was listening to Joe Rogness. I love Joe’s music – I have since the first time I heard him sing. However since moving to Africa his music has become even more meaningful. I’ve tried to figure out why that is and the only conclusion I can come to is that so many of his lyrics are filled with raw emotion. Struggles, pain, desire, joy – longing to express the feelings of his heart with words that others can understand. And yet the beauty of emotions is that they often leave us speechless. While I was singing along today, one of the lines that choked me up says, “Don’t let me doubt in darkness what you have shown me in the light”. And I thought to myself, “Man God that just sums it up for me. Please let me trust you NO MATTER WHAT!” Our lives here in Mozambique are full of uncertainty and I continue to have to choose everyday whether I will go with the flow of uncertainty or whether I will fight a loosing battle for control of the uncontrolalbe. Inevitably, when I choose the latter I set myself up for failure. I really believe that learning to walk by faith in my spiritual life requires me to learn to walk comfortably in uncertainty in my physical life. Unfortunately this seems to be a lesson that I have to relearn time and again.
As we move again to a new house, new neighborhood and new routines I have to choose to embrace the newness and celebrate the change. There is always growth in change and once I move through the pain of growth I am always glad that I have been changed! I long to remember that my God is completely dependable and in control whether I can see what’s ahead or whether I’m walking in the darkness!
posted by Sniders in Africa at 12/30/2006 08:50:00 AM
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